The Lower Ego Exploits Fear To Its Advantage
Aug 18, 2019
I missed our Monday Coffee last week as I was down with vertigo. My superpower to experience seasickness without going out to sea was working full time.
I learned many things about the lower ego while I was down, and how its main job is to try to put us in a permanent state of confusion through fear.
To cut a very long story short, I’m just going to share the nuggets of insights I gained through my ordeal.
Whenever things don’t go according to what we are familiar with, it is easy to move into fear, because our minds and hearts are trying to grasp at a touchpoint just so that we can use it as a compass. But when there is no such compass, the mind starts to go off in different directions looking. And we start to look at things, people, and situations to blame, to focus our attention to so that we can find some direction to move.
Because deep within us, we know that movement is life.
Unfortunately, our world views and our past personal life experiences do not allow us yet, to learn how to move in a direction that is beyond fear. Or beyond the unknown.
On my way to the hospital with vertigo, I was too out of it, to even think, so I only focused on my breathing to remain still so that I do not throw up. However, subsequent days that followed it, were tough days. I was limited in my movements, I felt frustrated, I felt immobilised, come on, I had things I needed to do! What is wrong with the universe for doing this to me!
Looking back, it is funny how I blamed the universe for giving me vertigo. Oh my, what egocentric fears. Being in bed meant there was a lot going on in my mind. One after another, the lower ego introduced new things to blame, new ideas to numb my brain, a new direction to move backwards.
I was busy while lying still. It got me into a state of confusion.
I started questioning myself — wait a minute, hang on. What is going on? Why am I letting the lower ego get the better of me? I may be physically unwell, it did not mean that I had to be mentally unwell too.
So I took my deep breathing exercises to a whole new level, meditated with a focus on surrender. This may sound like it was something I just switched on and off. No, it wasn’t the case, it took me days to come to a point where surrendering was a much better option. I fought with people around me because they could not do what I would do for them if the roles were reversed. I was angry, frustrated and nasty. And my self-pity gland worked overtime. Yup, not fun at all.
When I finally surrendered, slowly but surely together with holistic and wellness remedies (the medication didn't help) I got my vision back (I was struggling with double vision for days), things slowly clicked into place, my body is still on the mend. And when tiredness set in, my double vision came back, I would say whisper: surrender, to myself and relax into the moment and let the fear pass.
I share this with the hope that you can use what I have learned in your own life’s experiences. It may not be a physical thing you are going through, it could be an emotional issue or a mental one. Learning not to let the fear get to you, will only open pathways to wholeness.
© 2019 Shamala Tan
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Shamala Tan is an author, spiritual entrepreneur and healer. Her work focuses on transforming the lives of others on the spiritual, emotional, mental and earthly level.
One of her success stories as an author is to being featured alongside New York’s bestsellers Sonia Choquette, Robert Allen, Arielle Ford, Marci Shimoff as well as Christine Kloser in the book Pebbles In The Pond.
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